spicy combo

Been adjusting, learning, changing. 

A few days ago my ADHD diagnosis was  confirmed and I got meds for that. Its day two and, well, its weird. 

It takes about 2 weeks for the body to adjust to the doses and thankfully i'm on leave from work for that time. Takes a lot of stress off. I can focus on my health, both mental and physical. I am grateful for finally getting here. Tons of work and tears, it's just relieving. 

I feel pretty empty due to the meds but its also calm? 

Calm is good. 

Yet also tired.

Exhausted quite frankly. 

Staying at home has turned into a challenge, oddly enough. I enjoy going out and socializing but at times it feels like it's coming as an act to distract my mind from processing certain things. That successfully tires me out to get home, get washed up and get to bed. Been trying to think how to leave time for my mind but somehow it seems impossible. Maybe i'll hit up the gym.

Feels good to not be afraid though. Not have racing thoughts and anxiety, no constant fear of "shit will i cry now". I'm good. Calm and tired. 

Lets see how this unfolds.