given an answer

 what inspires me? what drives me? what motivates me? why all this, life? 

I've been thinking, as always lol. 

There's a fine line between having a God complex and being confident i guess, right? Or am I imagining it. Beautiful and confident people exist in the world and remain humble and kind, we don't perceive them as cocky for admiring their own beauty, we revel in the pictures and videos of them because we enjoy looking at beautiful things. In nature, in art, in humans. 

Sooo why do I sometimes feel guilty or cocky for posting what I post? I've decided to become free of old self opposed limits and fears, now I share and post whatever I feel like on my social media and its been a wonderful journey so far. I sometimes meet people randomly and they tell me they follow me and that it's been wonderful to watch my journey of growth, that what I share is inspiring and beautiful. It's always such a warm feeling, it validates my decision to stay true to myself, even if I like to admit I don't need any external validation in this area, it's still comforting. However here we get to the answer to the prompt: 

I'm inspired by the people I inspire. 

Especially when they come up to me and tell me, or message me or react and communicate with me on what I share. There's so much beauty in the world and the people in it make it, without each other we'd be lost. We inspire each other and whenever I SEE someone be true to themselves, live without fear, talk openly and without shame - that's fucking inspiring. That's beautiful. It makes me go uwu. 

I'm motivated by others who live the life I live, who follow the same no fear - no guilt - learn and progress - share and grow - community and love mentality. The motivation energy I tap into isn't just my own, its aligned with all of us on the same mission, on the same part of our journey, voicing the same truth out to the void, vibrating high. It's like a strong current of unified energy where we can tap in to get more drive, more power. When aligned with ourselves, we can access unified space, we can communicate with Source where we're all one. 

Keeping connection to that alignment, that energy, god... The delicious spectacle of life that plays before my eyes when my Soul is connected to Source is something I never want to lose again. What I've unlocked since taking care of myself and prioritizing healing, growing and becoming aware - this person, this beautiful being, I am it and sometimes it feels like it isn't me. Not yet. I am it and it is growing all over me. It is covering me to become I. Fuck it feels great to know and understand, and to find pleasure in patience. Knowing that you will become something great, that there's a transition in your life from unpleased to so fucking pleased, when you know its happening and you'll get everything you ever wanted, that you already have it and there's just more coming - god damn. I'm wet on life. The tease is divine. The ride is packed with views. The air is filled with particles we have control over. How could I ever give in to fear again. 

All this life. 

Everything that has happened and is happening and I feel happening in the future. Its no ordinary journey or... it's the most ordinary. Started in wasteland, went on to a rocky river, then the uphill jungle, moved on to an Everest type of mountain AND NOW, it feels like I've stumbled into some Buddhist temple in the Himalayan mountains. I arrived, put my stuff down, took my bleeding feet out, fell on my arse and chugged the remainder of my water.

I feel my journey isn't complete, far from it. More like I can rest. I can actually sit down and sleep, then eat, then start to process the path I've travelled, dwell on the lessons, on the hardships, the adventures. Forgive myself for the sacrifices, losses and mistakes made on the road. Take time to appreciate everything and everyone that helped me move onward, and to see myself as the hero in my own journey. I'm grateful for not being afraid to ask for help and accept it when offered, for trusting myself, trusting the world. I might have been naïve in the eyes of my mom and family, seemed delusional to my friends or suspicious in the eyes of some others.

Egos may think I'm fake, even my own used to think that. Used to think that I have an agenda, some self gain loaded behind each one of my actions and words. I do. Everyone does. However what agenda that may be, that's now where other peoples Egos fuck with their perception. Each word and action of mine is loaded with raw energy of love and a yearning to expand. Not that romantic one bruv. The vibration of love. Everything I do, I do with all the knowledge I have up to date, I am who i am today and don't pretend to be anyone else. My Soul is aimed to connect with the Soul energy of other people, to create a world feeling secure. Where we can go through our fucked up journey and still have it paired with the feeling of safety, knowing that there is genuine support in the community that surrounds us on our path.

I'm just real, my way of real. That's the type of people that have helped inspire me on my journey, the real ones are the ones who have given me honest feedback, talked to me straight up when I WAS GIVING UP. Thanks to the real ones, I'm a real one. For those on  I'm yet to meet on my journey, those coming to me and vice versa.

All this life, what need for malice? What need for jealousy, greed or envy? Just be real, play the game of life and have fun, love, connect, take care.

There's all this life. More than enough of it, of you, of us. 

I feel enough. I want others to feel like they're enough and that they have enough, that all we yearn for is here. 

xx