higher self

 Prompt: Imagine your higher self. 

Your higher self can act as an alter ego, one you can consult with from within. Lets build a vision of her, work to visualize her.

What does She look like: hair, skin, piecings, tattoos, style? What kind of passions fill Her everyday life? Where lay her boundaries? What archetype does She prefer to embody? 

How I've envisioned my higher self... She's a strong woman with long hair, highlights at parts but strong, natural, wavy, thick forests down to her peaches. Her smile could cut you and melt you all in one, her voice is mellow like hot tea on an autumn evening. Her presence makes you feel loved, fuzzy, powerful, inspired. Her entire being is there to inspire.

She's confident and wise, observes, enjoys, listens, breathes. She's covered in leaves and has markings of nature on her left arm and right leg. Her back is a map of energy, her stomach holds kundalini synergy. She's fearless and kind, she's loving yet divine. Fuck she's gorgeous, and she's not afraid of anyone, not their opinions or actions. She's an unstoppable force that's core energy is love. She nurtures her body and her mind, she reads, she paints, she crafts the art that she is into the 3D reality, every day. 

My Higher Self knows that everyone around me is on their path, she tells me when to hold my wisdom and how to encourage others. She's connected to Source and channels wisdom and guidance to herself in order to pass it on to others with grace. She's a walking mirror, showing everyone what they can really do. Her greatest goal? To place the mirror in front of me, first. 

Currently my hair is partly blonde, growing strong. It's wavier than ever before and longer than it's been in years. My braces are coming off in 2 months and i've found a confidence in my smile before that, so how i'll feel and what my smile will reflect once i don't have these on, exciting to see. I'm working out again, i'm feeling strong. Almost got my handstand, core strength. For the first time my friends are telling me how i've inspired them, random people are reaching out telling me that they think i'm awesome and beautiful and smart and funny.

All i'm doing is existing, more raw than ever. Landing in myself more and more, every single day. 

And thanks to all this, i'm aligning with my center. I'm feeling balanced and holy. Not telling life what to give me but taking what it naturally brings, accepting the blessings and teachings, the people, the work, the feelings, the pressure, the good, the bad, the fucking wtfs and the holy shit yesss'es. 

I know my last hurdles, i know my last battles. I see them, i fly over them daily. Feeling them coming, the balls dropping. Myself? I'm working towards it all. I'm preparing and trusting in my time, in my progress, in my journey. I aint pushing anything, i aint forcing change or love or growth anymore. I'm allowing it, i'm flowing with it. I'm okay to not be okay, and to be cherished, to be appreciated, to be resented, to be missed. I feel all of these things too, so i know that i'm deserving of the same.

She's taught me that.
She isn't afraid of being left, she knows there is no losing, there is only change and possibility. 

And with that....

Stitched up my abandonment wound recently.

This is aftercare. I'm like so okay. I am not afraid of people leaving, i'm not expecting them to either. I know my worth, i see theirs. I understand that things change, that problems come up, that i can't control any of it besides feel what's the closest to the right path and follow that. Even if it means giving up or fighting until i have to give up. 9:11 pm

21.11.2022= 3+2+6= 11

11s everywhere