fire eye

i didn't expect to see you.

but then again she said, "you come here aiming to get what you want,

but get what you need." and oh was she right.

i wished to cry that night, just to cry.

to let the feelings i could not put words to, wash away. 

let go of the feeling, feel it - to free it.

before we even properly started moving,

sweat was dripping down the side of my brows,

droplets on my lashes, sweat pooling between my fingers.

as we held hands and took deep breaths together,

i could feel the synergy between our energies,

all over again... I equaled Us. 

the points we released, some were familiar, 

i thought come what may, and at times it came.

in other moments, i felt it had already been done, peace.

then we reached that moment, deep diving.

"someone is behind you, someone that loves you,"

and i turned around, and it was you, unexpectedly so. 

you smiled softly, handing me a small box,

it was pearly white with a wide, cherry ribbon,

inside it? a raw gold necklace with elephant bone details.

so pleasantly surprised it was you,

puzzling together the meaning of the necklace

but not having to figure out your purpose, is nice

its so nice that when i finally cried, what i released

was shame, was fear, was strength.

i had admitted before: what i feared most was to be weak. 

after this session thats what i was, 

i felt like the weaker one, the softer one, 

the one that needed a nap and cuddles afterwards.

dare i say, the bravery that allowed me to be -

came from a deeper unleashing of my feminine,

which you've softly helped to blossom, my divine masculine.

there was much more that i saw,

the light of my core transforming from a beam to a bubble,

the foundations of my Heart cracking open, terraforming.

there was movement, a different flow

familiar yet new, an experience you almost expect but it still surprises,

much like discovering and uncovering the hidden corners of our Soul

felt good, coming out of it 

it was like floating on water, i felt vulnerable and willing,

and its wild, to feel myself, yet again,

transforming.